So I’ve been kind of hinting a little bit about this in some recent posts of mine…
When I was younger, I imagined I’d one day be a stay at home mom and probably run a small business or do something from home so that I could not only bring home some income of my own but so that I wouldn’t be super bored either.
Well, luckily and surprisingly that time came a lot sooner than I expected… And that’s totally fine. Only, I was left kind of frazzled by the whole thing. It happened so fast and I hadn’t even really thought about what I truly wanted to do.
I always imagined too, that I would be a stay at home mom until my children were all old enough to go to school and then I could go back to work part-time if I wanted.
Well, as it turns out, having a baby changes everything… And my husband told me that he’d like for me to homeschool our child. And to be honest, I was taken back by it, though I never truly considered it to be an option. In the very same minute, I envisioned a tunnel that was my way to a career getting longer and longer until I saw no light.
I felt like I had already given so much of myself to our child simply by breastfeeding her. And anyone who’s breastfed would understand that it’s no easy task and that it takes a lot of dedicated time… Whether you’re nursing or pumping. So the thought of staying home and dedicating an additional twelve years of my time homeschooling her, scared the crap out of me. And don’t take that in a wrong way, because I would absolutely give my life for my child. She is my purpose for living now… But please try to understand, I had just left a good, full-time job that I very much enjoyed and could have moved up in.
So I refused to consider homeschooling for a few days after that, and then my curiousity and my need to do research on everything in advance kicked in. To my surprise, I found a lot of positives in it. Of course, we still have a lot of time left to make that official but I toyed with the idea of it. Looking into the future at what my life would be like if it were all happening…
And I asked myself why I felt like the possibility of a career disappeared from my sight. To be quite honest, I must have just been feeling overwhelmed because I had come to the realization that now was the time for me to get my things in order to make it happen. The more I thought about it, the more I questioned why – especially if I had always just seen myself in the future being a stay at home mom and owning my own business – why I couldn’t make it happen with my child now?
Well… I couldn’t come up a real excuse. And what a shame it would be if I didn’t take advantage of the fact that I have the extra time now with no 9-5 to worry about. Why not go for it? So here’s to step one… Motivation.
I hope this inspires you a little bit to think about what you’re doing to make your own dreams happen. And I hope you follow along to see how I make mine!